Monday, October 28, 2024

ଓତପ୍ରୋତ

ବର୍ଣ୍ଣ ବିହୀନେ ବର୍ଣ୍ଣନା ଯେ କି କରିବି ମୁଁ ତା'କୁ କୁହ ମୋତେ।
ଅବର୍ଣ୍ଣନୀୟ ସେ ବର୍ଣ୍ଣ ବା କି ତା'କୁ ବର୍ଣ୍ଣନା କରିବ କେତେ ।। 
ଜଳଜଳ ହୋଇ ଜଳେ ସେ ଜଳରେ ଅଗାଧ ଜଳେ ସେ ଭାସେ ।
ଭାଷେ ସେ ବ୍ରହ୍ମାଣ୍ଡ ଭାଷା ଅନୁପମ ମୌନତା କିନ୍ତୁ ଚଷେ ।।


ଦ୍ରଷ୍ଟା ଦୃଷ୍ଟିରେ ଦେଖେ ସେ ଦୁନିଆ ବୁଝେ ସେ ଦର୍ଶନ ଜ୍ଞାନ ।
ଦୂର ସେ ତାରାର ଦୀର୍ଘ ବୁକୁରେ ନିତି ସିଞ୍ଚଇ ସ୍ବପ୍ନର ଦ୍ରୁମ ।।
ଡାକେ ପାଖରେ ତଥାପି ଦୂରରେ କିନ୍ତୁ ଡଗର ଲୋଡ଼େ ସେ ନାହିଁ ।
ନହକା ଡଙ୍ଗାରେ ଡଅଁରେ ପଡିଲେ ଡାକକେ ଉଦ୍ଧାରେ ତହିଁ ।।


ଗଦ୍-ଗଦ୍ ହୋଇ ଗାଏ ସେ ଗୀତିକା ଗଗନେ ପବନେ ଭାସି ।
ଗମ୍ଯ ଗାଥାର ଗହନ ଗାମ୍ଭୀର୍ଯ୍ୟ ପୁଣି ଭାବଇ କ୍ଷଣେ ସେ ବସି ।।
ରଚଇ ରଚନା ରିକ୍ତ ଆକାଶେ ମୁକ୍ତ ମନର ଭବ୍ଯ ସ୍ମୃତି ।
ରମ୍ୟ ରବିଙ୍କ ଅଙ୍କିତ ପଥେ ବୁଣଇ ଅପୂର୍ବ କିରଣ ନିତି ।।

ଅନନ୍ତ ଅଦ୍ଭୁତ କାହାଣୀ ସମ୍ଭାର ଅଛି ତନ୍ମଧ୍ଯରେ ଲୁଚି ।
ଅନେକ ଅନନ୍ଯ ସାରମର୍ମ ତହିଁ, ପଢ଼ିବେ ପାଠକେ ବୁଝି ।।

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A Little Something:

The Odia consonants are generally arranged in a matrix format of 5 columns.

For this piece, the consonants in the third column of the first 5 rows and the consonant in the second column of the sixth row is taken (There are rarely any words beginning with the third consonant in the sixth row). In each “couplet”, multiple words are used that start with these consonants.

Here, the relative positioning of the consonants are considered. When the relative positions of the consonants in each stanza is added, the sum results to 31, except in the third stanza.

In the third stanza, the sum resulted in 30 because of the adjustment in the sixth row. Hence, to make up for it, the first vowel is used as the beginning of multiple words in the last two lines. The vowel is given a conditional position of 1 (marked with an asterisk), and hence the result of sum adjusts up to 31.

31 + 31 + 31 = 93

P. S. There are a couple more number related usages in this piece. Let’s leave it at that.

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Monday, October 21, 2024

Witnessing a Death

 

I wondered that day - if I was ever in a situation to take that carriage, would I be able to see the Thestrals that drew them? Or would that part of my innocence will still be preserved and I would believe in the magic of self-drawn carriages?

It was a day like any other. The weather was pleasant, as many would probably call it. On such an uneventful yet pleasant evening, I went out with my mother.

I was at top of my spirits as I usually am whenever I accompany her. There's a very carefree and vivacious feel whenever she has a set of chores to take care of; I just need to be there with nary a dust to worry about. On occasions when neither of us have a set plan in place, that brings a different kind of sprightly vibe and happiness. This time it was the former case - she had a task list. 

Among the couple of places we were supposed to visit that day, the last one was a jewelry shop. This also happened to be the place where I would later witness that event. 

Except for appreciating the craftsmanship and creativity, a jewelry store doesn't have anything else to offer to me. So, mostly I wander around and see the works of art (jewelry pieces carved by artisans in this case), very much like we do in any art gallery or museum. That evening was no different.

For a few minutes, I did help in deciding among the few designs my mother had shortlisted. While I was doing that, one of the two salespeople (who were assisting us), informed us that she needs to assist another customer who had some jewelry-mending work. I had never seen that and as was probably expected, my curiosity got the better of me and I asked my mother about it - how it is done, if she has ever seen it, and similar questions. The salesperson heard me and she was kind enough to offer me to accompany her. I asked my mother if that was ok, and upon affirmation from her I went along with the salesperson to witness how jewelry pieces are mended. 

The workshop section (/jewelry-mending section for me) was on another floor. I was brimming with excitement as we were stepping towards that section. We went through a couple of doors. The final door that led us into the workshop gave the impression of that stage curtain that demarcates the shiny, bright stage from the backstage area- chaotic yet with a certain silence that may feel eerie sometimes. 

There were a few other customers, probably for mending work, I assumed. There were different sections, and I stood near the section that was closest to the door. An unassuming desk divided the craftsperson from us, the customers/witnesses. There were a few tools, a flame, a bowl of water, and some powdery substances... all of which didn't give a clue as to what brilliance they were creating (or mending). Origins are often not as glamorous as the creations are. And I somehow felt thankful for that.
Origins are often not as glamorous as the creations are.
The craftsperson asked the next customer about their requirement. The customer announced that they want to melt their jewelry pieces. I was a tad confused... may be, but still didn't know what was going to happen exactly. That is when it happened. 

The person sitting across the desk took all the jewelry pieces, cast them in a container that had a handle, and without a blinking second exposed that to the hissing flame. The flame, immolating, impartial, and breathing, melted every inch of those beautiful pieces. Along with them vanished hours, perhaps days, of hard work, immeasurable aspirations, thoughts that birthed the designs, dreams that led the creativity, and affection of the heart and hands that birthed those pieces.

I was witnessing a pyre... of a creation that was deemed to have lived the life it was meant to live. The final moments were deemed upon it. Did it's maker know?... Apparently not. Would they have imagined this moment while they were creating it? I couldn't even imagine it. It was loud in and around, but I could still hear my heartbeats. It felt ironical, the heartbeats enthusiastically showing off the presence of a life infront of a pyre. My mind, however, was dead silent. It was trying to grasp what my eyes were witnessing. But how do you wrap your head around it?

It didn't even take much time, but it felt like ages passed by in a short breath. Once what was a beautiful, glorious piece of jewelry now looked like a lumpy gravel immersed in the water that lay in that bowl on the desk. It had a remnant shine, but the years of life in it was no more. The indiscriminating water helped it hold a random shape, a shape that had no more stories to tell, no more experiences to elaborate.

As I stood still, the salesperson came back and asked me to return with her. By this time, my mother had completed all the purchasing formalities. I realized it was less than 10 minutes. But those few minutes... they changed something; I didn't know if that was something permanent in me.

It made me wonder though. It made me wonder if I will be a different person. I wondered that day - if I was ever in a situation to take that carriage, would I be able to see the Thestrals that drew them? Or would that part of my innocence will still be preserved and I would believe in the magic of self-drawn carriages?
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Tuesday, September 24, 2024

An Anecdote Away 2 : Magic in the Mundane

The day that it was slowly becoming was not what anyone, even I, would have expected it to be. Well, I really don't know where and when the day actually began, but for the sake of convenience, let's say it started when I got ready to leave for the airport. 

It was 3.30 am. I was all packed up to leave. Normally, I pack extremely light, a regular back-pack which houses my electronics, a pair of clothes, and two books. However, this time I was going away for 2 months, which meant a backpack was not going to do the trick. I had luggage to check-in.

I kept the bags ready by the door, re-checked the house, and waited for the clock to strike 3.45 AM, which was when the cab was supposed to arrive. But it did not. Many phone calls, efforts, panicking thoughts, and desperate prayers later, somehow the cab arrived at 4.15pm, taking away the buffer time allocated for both cab delay and travel time.The first and the smallest hurdle had been taken care of. 

I reached the airport on time, thankfully. However, the flight, originally scheduled at 6.20 am was delayed by 2 hours. That meant letting go of my breakfast plans. At 7 am, while still waiting for the delayed flight, I called the restaurant and cancelled my reservation. Now, this would seem insignificant to many, but cancelling reservations or any appointments are tough. The severity is like going back on a promise. And if it involves food, it feels like a double blow to your heart - ask someone who loves food. 

It was an hour-long flight. I just had a few hours of work in the city, after which I would take my next flight, scheduled at 6 am the next morning. So, I opted to avail the airport cloakroom services (the 9-hour package by when I would definitely be back) to drop off my bag. I grabbed the tallest cup of coffee to keep off any possible drowsiness (courtesy of not getting a wink of sleep for the last 27 plus hours), took a cab, and off I went to the first meeting of the day. 

This is just for context of how the day was supposed to be, but I think this paragraph may be skipped if context is something that can be done away with. It was almost 10 am by the time I got the cab. My first meeting was at 11 am and all the work was supposed to get over by 2 pm. I had a lunch reservation at 2.15 pm at a restaurant just a stone's throw away from the place of work. I had planned to go to a gallery after that, be there for an hour, and then be back at the airport well before 6.30 pm. I would then collect the bag, check some stores at the airport, have a relaxing long dinner at that fun Japanese restaurant at 7.30 pm (the restaurant was just 5 minutes walk from the drop-off/departure points), and then wait in the lounge until my next flight. 

As the very first line suggested, nothing went as per the plan. I had to cancel my lunch reservation too. The work extended much beyond the expected hours, but the output was disheartening. It took much more than double the time I had allocated it, but didn't yield even a fraction of the result that was expected. The reserves of sunshine a person can hold runs low sometimes, especially when it is fuelled by lack of sleep, uninspiring work results, and an entire day with just a cup of coffee (for a person who is not used to caffeine).

I reached the airport after 7.30 pm, an hour late than when I was supposed to collect my bag from the cloakroom. I decided to not cancel my dinner reservation; I didn't have an ounce of strength left to do that. The restaurant anyway was just 5 minutes away. I went ahead with dinner, my first meal in 30 hours. However, again against expectations, I couldn't enjoy the dinner whole-heartedly... for worrying thoughts kept looming over me. Please don't misunderstand, the food was absolutely amazing but I was extremely tired... so tired that I feared if I rest in the lounge, I might not wake up to board the flight. 

After a quick dinner, I reached the cloakroom, two and a half hours later than I was supposed to collect my luggage. I was ready to pay the fine but arriving after the time slot that I had ticked on that form weighed down on me more, perhaps more than when dark clouds weigh down on an already gloomy sun-less day. After the allotted time slot expires, uncertainty creeps in, like unresolved shadows. The person in-charge might have experienced that uncertainty. And it's definitely not a good feeling. I was ashamed and knew apology is not enough. Nevertheless, apology was a must. Upon reaching the cloakroom, I did exactly that... I apologized, as much as I could. 

The person in-charge, let's call him N, smiled throughout and kept saying, "it's okay. I can understand." N was extremely polite and the owner of a pleasant and comforting smile. When I tried to hand over my card to pay the fine, he said, "you must have paid for the service when you dropped off your bag." I said that I had paid, but this is for the fine that I am supposed to pay for the delay. And I apologized again. He replied that he would waive it off. When I insisted, he said, "It's completely okay. It wasn't that long anyway. I understand you might have had a tough day. You don't have to pay anything extra." He smiled, again.

I was extremely grateful. I had nothing with me that I could give as a token of appreciation and gratitude... except for my custom made bookmarks. I opened my luggage for the bookmarks, wrote a gratitude note, and then went back and gave N a set of bookmarks along with the note. I thanked him and he thanked me back. His earlier smile of understanding now reflected a smile of being appreciated, perhaps with a hint of graceful happiness.

Afterwards, I debated whether to go to the lounge or just dwindle around for the entire night. I strolled around for 30 odd minutes which made me realize I couldn't go on like that. I grabbed another tall cup of coffee and checked into the lounge. I requested them to call me up by 3 am, lest I fall asleep. They suggested that I have enough time if I want to take a nap, and I should because I looked exhausted.

Until they told me so, I had not realized that I too might look exhausted. When I think back, the server at the restaurant looked concerned and N's initial reaction when I first apologized too had a hint of concern. I misread/ignored those expressions back then. Did I look that pathetically exhausted for them to get concerned, I wonder. With these and some other unassociated thoughts, I took a rest in the lounge but I couldn't sleep, the caffeine was doing its job, even working overtime. 

I checked out of the lounge a little before 3 am, checked in for my flight, which thankfully was on time, and checked the few shops inside the airport that were still open. Even though I had not slept in 48 hours by then (which would later on extend to 60 hours), I still didn't sleep during the flight. I was perhaps physically drained off my strength, but the kindness that I received surely did boost my spirits. N's smile and his kindness did help refill the reserve of my sunshine too. A nice breakfast, sleep, and later some familiar faces helped in further refilling the reserve. Often things that are otherwise considered mundane... are actually magical. 


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Monday, September 16, 2024

An Anecdote Away 1: Expressive Errors

An exceptionally expressive soul with a stoic stanced exterior is a puzzlingly perplexing problem. I call it the esp... for reasons that seem and feel obvious... to me. But as has been proved earlier, on many occasions, I cannot say with a certainty that it is obvious to others. 

Thus arises the need, nay want, to explain. However, just how an explained joke is a joke no more, this too meets the same fate. So, I would not describe too much than is actually needed. 

There's another reason too. I am pretty sure that this piece, or any other piece penned by me, would not be visible to a majority of people- many will actually not see it, and many will choose not to. Of the countable few who will see it, most would not read past the first couple of lines. And by the time we reach the crux, or even the beginning of the crux, there might not be any readers left. In essence, it might just be me or someone like me who reads it; they would understand anyway.

So, here's the beginning. It was one of those subject labs which was considered (probably still is) as one of the most difficult and complex labs. It required application of both software and hardware components embedded into one. And hence (possibly) it seemed daunting, because the presence of both aspects, actively, in humans is also a rare sight these days. Hence, to relate to aspects of this lab might not be an easy task.

In one of the sessions of these labs, we were to hand out problem statements to each of the lab participants. The norm I prefer to follow is to test the waters yourself first before sending anybody in. So, one saturday afternoon, one of my colleagues and I decided to give each statement a try. There were 6 statements, in total, to test. The first 4 were executed without hiccups of any sort. When it came to the 5th statement however, that was not the case. 

For the 5th statement, we wrote the lines of code, made the necessary configurations and turned our eyes towards the screen that would show us the output. But, it wasn’t what it was expected. It showed a "different", "unexpected" value. I was thrilled to say the least. My soul was experiencing exploding streams of happiness. My stance, however, was calm. I was smiling which was a vast vast understatement of how excited I felt at that moment. I was able to utter a meagre "wow" that assisted my smile.

My colleague looked at me and had an expression that was "expected" at that moment. The output was unexpected and hence is considered an "error", something that is not meant to exist, something that should be discarded, removed. My expression might not have made sense. So, she asked me why I was happy/calm about it. The output was so irrelevant and had to be fixed. I knew what she meant but I didn't quite understand the reaction.

Maybe the output was irrelevant in that context, but it still felt like a desirable necessity. If everything goes as they are expected to go, if everything is done to fit the relevance code, everything would be so linear, so redundant, and so against the basic nature of the very universe we live in. Why can’t we celebrate irrelevances, differences, unexpected-ness-es!!

There was no way I was going to ramble these lines there. So, I just said that even though it is an "error", it still is so beautiful and interesting. And that made me happy. She was kind, and hence smiled back with a "you are optimistic" reply. We did not dwell on it further and after a couple of minutes of modifications, the experiment showed the expected outcome. We winded up the 6th one too and called it a day.

I still have a photo of that unexpected result on the social media page of this website. It might be insignificant, but still doesn't feel insignificant. It feels like it had a meaning and a purpose. The day that it was... irrational and beautiful. 

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Saturday, September 14, 2024

The Book

I am reminded of the time when I would go to this library to look for this particular book I wanted to read at that time.

But it was always unavailable. I  went in almost everyday for a month... or maybe even more. 

However, the book still wouldn't be there. There was just one copy in that library and one person had borrowed it the same day when I first went looking for it. I was few minutes late and this person was able to borrow it right before me. And now, this person was surely taking their own sweet time returning it. 

I would return every time with some other book, and sometimes, even empty-handed. 

Even though I made sure not to look too eager about it, but asking for the same book for the longest time sure does not help with that attempt. The librarian probably noticed my vain attempt. After a couple of weeks, she would tell me even before I could ask for the book... once more. It was helpful... somewhat... at least I had to use fewer words and now the smile was all it took. The librarian was always kind to me.

After about a month, the librarian, kind as she was, she promised to call me as soon as the book is returned. I need not go looking for it everyday.

A few more days passed and ultimately... I left that city.

After all these years, I still haven't received that call. I wonder how she is doing and if she forgot to give that call.

I wonder too... about how the book is doing.
The book..."Die Leiden des jungen Werthers" by Goethe or popularly known as "The Sorrows of Young Werther".




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Wednesday, September 11, 2024

Unsaid

She never said
And he never asked
Even if the thoughts were there
He never uttered a single word.
And she, like she was,
Could never have believed
Even if the words she wished 
Were the words she heard.

For his voice was a magical spell
That made her heart quiver,
She dwelled in weaved worlds
Where his voice shined,
And she was the staunch believer.
His voice brightened every corner
And every nook,
With the fragrance of his smile there,
There was nothing that could have her shook

And yet she never spoke...
Her eyes spake of her feelings
But the silence, her lips never broke.

He wished too,
To speak of his soul,
The mystery of her dimple,
And how it made him whole.
If only words were that simple,
He could write sagas about her,
For she was nothing like he ever knew
But everything he desired 
And his heart drew.

She was the comfort of morning rays
And enigma of the satin night,
The embodiment of the gentlest soul,
And the sparkle in her eyes
Made everything right,
His universe with the perfect sight.

And still, she never said
And he never asked 
Even if the thoughts were there
They never uttered a single word

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39+50+18+47+34+21=209

8/   9/3   9/6   /4=   /39
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Saturday, August 17, 2024

미움 아님 마음

이렇게 얼굴이 붉어진 건... 처음
느낄수록 더욱 궁금해지지만
이 설명할 수 없는 표정 변화... 미움

행복의 눈물이 뭔지 몰랐지만
그 눈물에 담긴 모든 감정을 느끼는 것... 처음
알면 알수록 더욱 신비로워지지만
그걸 알면서도 여전히 모르는 건 ... 미움

눈을 마주치는 건 어렵지 않지만
그의 눈을 마주치는 게 어려움 겪... 처음
피하려고 할수록 더욱 몰입하게 된다
힘들더라도 계속 바라보고 싶은 감정... 미움

음악에는 마법이 있지만
누군가의 목소리에 이렇게 매료된 적은... 처음.
들을수록 더욱 달콤해지지만,
내 심장 박동을 조절하는 방식 ... 미움

사랑에 대해 생각해 본 적은 있지만
이런 감정을 느껴 본 적은... 처음
생각할수록 더욱 혼란스러워지지만
계속 그런 느낌을 원하는 것... 미움

☆☆☆☆☆☆

얼굴이 붉어지더라도,
다양한 색상을 표현할 수 있는 기회...마음

기쁨의 눈물이 요즘은 자주 나더라도,
희망을 주고 미소를 짓게 하는 것을 그 기분... 마음

몰입되어 있어더라도,
그의 그윽한 눈빛을 통해 내 감정을 탐구하는 느낌... 마음

음악만큼 마법같지는 않더라도,
그 목소리에 맞춰 내 심장이 뛰는 두근두근 소리... 마음

혼란스럽더라도,
영혼을 풍요롭게 하는 그 기쁨 감... 마음

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태양이 뜨면,하늘이 사람과 함께 있다면
미움도 마음으로 변한다
모든 감정이 새롭고 밝아진다

미움 아니다
마음이다. 영원히.

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Meaningful English Translation:
(Translated on: October 09, 2024)

I have always been a bit shy
But I have never blushed like this before 
The more I feel it,  the more I keep wondering
However
This inexplicable change in my expression…
I dislike

Even though I keep blushing,
This possibility to experience various colours… 
I like

I had never known what tears of joy before
But this is the first time
I felt every emotion in those tears
The more I know the mysterious it gets
But that sense of knowing it and still not knowing it...
I dislike

Even though tears of joy are common these days
The way it gives me hope and makes me smile…
I like

It has never been difficult to look into someone’s eyes
But it is, when it is him
The more I try to avoid it
The more immersed I become
That emotion to still immerse in his eyes
Even though it is this difficult… 
I dislike

Even though I am immersed (in those eyes)
That sense of exploring my emotions
Through his profound eyes… 
I like

There is magic in music
But I have never been so captivated by someone’s voice
The more I listen the sweeter it gets
But the way it guides my heartbeat… 
I dislike

Even though that voice might not be
As magical as music
The sound of my heart
Beating to the rhythm of his voice…
I like

I have always thought about Love
But I’ve never felt about it the way it feels now
The more I think about it
The more confusing it gets
However, the want to continue feeling like that…
I dislike

Even though it feels confusing, 
The happy feeling of Love enriching my soul…
I like

☆☆☆☆☆☆
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When the sun rises, 
And the heavens favor us (humans)
Hate too, transforms into Love

Every feeling feels new 
And every emotion brightens up

For there never was hate
It has been Love.  
Always and Forever.

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A Little Something:

The original poem is a take on the design, shape, and positioning of the Korean alphabets (called Hangul)... specifically the vowels.

The vowels are a combination of three basic symbols, viz. Earth, Heavens, and Humans. The relative positioning of these symbols determine the yin and yang of the vowels so formed.

I observed, that just by a simple repositioning of these symbols in a word leads to a transformation that forms another word (please refer the video). The meanings change and so does the yin and yang. Of course, a few liberties has been taken.

While translating, this essence is lost. However, the words have been highlighted (italicized) as an indication.

It is not a word by word translation, and every effort to read between the lines, and feel the embedded symbolism is highly appreciated. 


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Make me white
Make me black
Make me grey
Even a color 
That from the color wheel 
May momentarily go astray

Make me red
Make me purple
Make me pink
Even a color
That lies in the spectrum
Albeit to the brink

Make me yellow
Make me orange
Make me brown
Even a color
That has never known
How it feels to have the crown

Make me blue
Make me azure
Make me green
Even a color
That might have lost
A tinge or two of its sheen

But spare me the one
That has been there forever
But has its lifetime done
Spare me the one
That could have had something 
But it always had none
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Monday, August 12, 2024

The Breathing Waters

The breathing waters
speak of Life, 
the one that exists as a testament,
a testament to the Love
of the Sun and the Moon.


바다의 모든 물 한 방울은 숨을 쉰다
숨쉬는 바다는 생명을 말해준다... 
증거로서 생명을 말해준다
태양과 달의 사랑의 증거이다.

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A little something:

On March 18, 2023, I took a boat to an island in the Arabian sea. The waters, which appeared to be alive and breathing, captivated me. I knew I need to put those feelings into words.

So, two days later, on March 20, 2023, I announced (to myself) that I will write about it.

More than a year later, I wrote some words...but they could barely scratch the surface of all the feelings that were felt, and all the thoughts that were lived on that day. And I still have unmaterialized emotions yet to see the light of thoughts, and possibly be framed in words.

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As a blogger, one of the things I am often asked is "How/ When did you get started with all this?" For as long as my memory takes me back, I have always found myself pondering about a plethora of things. I have always loved reflecting on the small but wonderful aspects of life. Ipsita Contemplates has been very special and I love to get the opportunity to share my musings, my thoughts, and my perceptions with you. It is also a way to appreciate the essence of Life!