The first couple of times the question was asked, it didn't quite register with me. However, anybody would notice a pattern if it is being hovered right in front of their eyes, let alone me. Especially when it came assisted along with a follow up statement, and a quizzical reaction/response.
The jist is I loved the subject ABC. I would keep waiting eagerly for its lab classes and I would feel happy solving the assessment questions. I was also fond of other subjects that we had that semester, however, my interest towards ABC might have been a bit more evident to others.
So, that day when the aggregate internal marks for all our subjects were published, their curiosity might have led them to ask the question. Some just asked about the mark, while with a couple of friends the conversation went on a bit more.
It went somewhat like this: (Fr: Friend)
Fr: How much did you get in ABC?
Me: I got "y" marks.
Fr: It must have been the highest among all you other subjects' marks.
Me: It isn't. It is the lowest as compared to my marks in the rest of the subjects this semester.
Fr: So, now you must not like ABC anymore.
Me: I still do. Why wouldn't I?
Fr: Still? Why? But your marks in other subjects are higher than your marks in ABC. Why do you still like it?
Me: How are those two aspects related?
The conversation would mostly stop after that or take a different turn. I wondered, if I had scored average (or less) marks in that, would I have been expected to stop loving it? Or even worse, would I have been expected to hold a grudge, dislike it, or say mean things about it? Even the thought of such a transactional aspect is concerning.
Often times, your affinity towards something is associated with the level of your success in that aspect. If you are fond of something, if you feel happy (or have ever felt happy), shouldn't that be enough? Why do we have to ask for something else in return? Why should liking/feeling towards something change based on its accessibility (like marks or ease of understanding and the likes)? Should we show our affinity only when we excel in it the most or certain conditions and expectations are fulfilled?
If you ask me the reason, I wouldn't know. I have not come across every individual on this planet, hence my understanding is based primarily on my personal experience. Since that number is meagre when compared with the world population, nothing can be generalized, and hence I do not have an answer. I didn't understand it then, and I still do not.
When you love something, you just love something. There can be no calculation involved. There could be no objective. If we love doing something, if we love learning something, wouldn't it be great if we could focus only on that? I wish and I hope that it would be wonderful if we start considering Happiness and Love as the greatest factors. Wouldn't it be?
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